Home Alone

In the still of the night, I hear the church bells chiming away in my heart. Joy to the birth of Jesus Christ on this Blessed Day where we rejoice! To my awesome family members, Wilson and friends! Blessed Christmas! No Santa Clause with huge present sack but my sincere thanks for being there for me in times of need.

I looked at my last blog entry and it was related to being stressed out in exams. Well, maybe stress to the highest level means even when I am dreaming, theories and notes came floating in my mind, haunting me in my dreams. Perhaps I should be thankful for it. *Perhaps* It was never smooth the moment I took this path. I knew the pros and cons and weighted the differences. I had wanted to test my own limits in a way and to see how far I can stretch my capabilities. It may sound silly but I am competitive in a different manner. I don't really wish and care about competing with others from my course but it's more of competing with myself. The sense of success felt at the end was able to satisfy my thirst for it.

I do have my doubts and all but now, I felt it's all worth it. I like what I am studying now and the interest is there. Many out there might be doing something that they are not interested in but had to follow the bait for the sake of survival. Contrary, here am I, pursuing my dreams. I am contended. Life can be simple. Process of studying is hard and the company of classmates does help me greatly. Without them, school was boring. I learnt a lot from my clique of friends. A LOT. It was of a different display of friendship but enticing conversation was nonetheless abundant.

I remembered,* it was not of a vague memory, the sigh of relief and the load on my shoulders fall off at the end of the last exam papers. Whatever learnt throughout the semester was being put to test in the exam hall and had been accounted for. Fruits of labour were proven in the insignificant exam results online. So much toil and sweat in order to get an A, B or C. It appears tougher than babies trying to piece the ABC puzzles. No Cs in my result slip and I am glad. I did better than what I expected. It was the best sweet surprise that happened recently.

Enough about school and papers, some may know that I undergone an operation days after my exams. It was meant to be a 3o minute surgery but it lasted 5 hours when they discovered something else on my cheek. Right now, I am suffering the effects of the surgery and had to be bound at home for speedy recovering. Staying in hospital wasn't as fun as what some lame TV serials show. Pain. It was acute pain and I had to be regularly injected with painkillers on my arm to stop it. Hourly intervals and worse still, I can't move much to show my disapproval of needles poking at me. In and out, semi-conscious state and barely able to talk. I wished I had telepathy power then. It must be hard on Wilson too to stay with me through the few days and juggle with his bsuy workload. Liquid food was the best staple source of energy for me. I recalled 5 surgeons standing in front of me, talking in a highly professional way and describing my condition. It didn't seem to register in my head. Words flowed in from one ear and of course, there was drainage. It was much later that I found out what the doctors said when I was much sane. Wilson was there with me the whole time. I must have freaked him out. He mentioned he would rather be the one suffering the pain on behalf of me. Alas, I would have endured the pain rather to ask you to bear it for me. Sounds that awoke me from my sleep include my mobile ringing tone. I had set it to ringing because I couldn't resist the lure of chipmunks singing Christmas Carols. Mum and Dad came after their work but all I could do is to try and smile in a silly manner. Friends came too. 2 of them and hence, plural form. XJ's voice is registered in my dreams and awoke to see her. How could I miss such a warming voice? Thanks for coming, the 2 of you. =)

Been at home for almost a month and I suppose although the doctors are trying their best to find the root of the problem. If I said I'm not worried, then it would be a lie. I just need a healthy me for the new semester. I wonder how it could be so in my current state. I had thought this year was the worse Christmas of all. Staying at home and rotting till flies come and gobble me up. Church was out due to the crowd and it was a big no no. Well, I did feel a little depressed being hogged at home for weeks. In the end, went out with Mr D. and Wilson to Geylang for a small bite. Supper. It wasn't that sort of big grand Christmas dinner with loads of friends and wishing each other Merry Christmas and drinking ourselves silly. It's just the three of us being ourselves and talking about everything under the sun. I like it as compared to watching the old Chinese movie shown on TV. Wilson must be tired being my chauffeur. Had missed meeting XJ though. Hope to see you soon!

The day after Christmas. S & S must have felt that my jaws need a good exercise. Maybe we broke time record. Conversation from 3:30 pm to 9:30 pm. I don't think we paused talking... Indeed, my jaws are dropping now. We had some hilarious reminiscence looking at videos and photos that we took years before. Incredibly humorous. Laughter's the best medicine and I totally agreed.

Right now, I am still typing while on voice webcam with Wilson. He is constantly worrying about me and my medical condition. My 3 meals a day and food that is deemed as suitable for consumption. This month could have drained him out for taking extra care of me. I am blessed to have someone for my life companion who is willing to give his all for me. Saying thanks is out of the question as words can't express how I feel.

Always a conclusion?

Presents or gifts from friends - Bonquet of flowers with a small bear. 2 Fortune Cats from HK. A Harrods Bag. 2 Eyores. 1 Turtle.

Christmas Dinner - Maybe less than $5o

An Existing Medical Condition - Worthless

Knowing the friends and family are there for you - Priceless

I'm not the type of mushy mellows person but hey ~ Thanks

Exams

Ah~ Finally it's here. I'm experiencing exams stress... 3 Bloody Geo Papers. Wohoo! I can feel the bile in my throat now. GGrrr~~ When will this be over? (>O<)

I need a Superhero to come flying through my windows to rescue me now. U hear that?!?!

(TOT) Freeze me!

I Love Singapura!

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Only Best Friends Do This~~

To Xingjuan, Can't wait for my hols to start! ! Then I'll spend time at home reading all the mails. =P Thanks to 'You Know Who' who has been sending Emails to Me! I <3>O<)'

Note to self, Time to go back to study (TOT)

Destruction

Scene: In the Bank
Scenario: Adeline was going to the bank for a card replacement. Her ATM card was 12 years old and beyond usage anymore. She saw the bank counter lady cutting her old ATM into 2 pieces.

Adeline: (Thoughts) That goes my 12 year relationship with my old, greyish ATM Card. I wonder if I can request it back and keep it? Hmm...
Adeline: Hi, was wondering whether I can take the old ATM card back? (*flashes a innocent smile)
Bank Lady: I'm afraid not. I'll have to send it for DESTRUCTION.
Adeline: (Thoughts) Wow... Destruction.. Using what type of bomb???! LOL

Maybe the correct way of saying would be: I'm afraid not. The old ATM card will be disposed of by our company.

Anyways, I was grinning on my way out. Wondering...
Wow.. How many customers had she used the word on ? (>O<)

Thoughts

A Heart so Pure
A Love so True
Could it be
The Test of Time?

Feelings gone
Routine's on
Could it be
Everlasting Love?

The Heart is Saddened
Temptation Arises
Could it be
the Breaking Point?

Think of Her
Think of Us
Could it be
the Dreams of Past?

Feel the Love
Feel the Memories
Could it be
the Shadows of Doubt?

This I Pray
Stop the Talk
Follow your heart and
Do the Walk

Could it Be
Could it Be
Could You Be
The Chosen One?

-Adeline-

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

Once in a Lifetime

The Promise

**Going HK in Dec with rah.. leaving yan behind to work.. will buy lots n lots of things.. >.<

Wa! Evidence! Thanks for promising to buy lots of things for me! I'll be waiting patiently in Singapore!

HEhehe~ Recently had the opportunity to watch "Death Note". Everything looks simple. No fanciful poster or massive advertising with hunks on front cover. Guys in the show are all plain skiiny .. and un-handsome. But the plot was awful. Something different than the normal 'good triumph over evil' type of movie or the 'happily ever after'. It's about a death notebook .. slipped by a shinigami - death god .. landed with a typically normal school boy .. Allows one to write the names of people.. and that particular person will end up dead.. Blar Blar.. Hehe.. Lazy to elaborate. Go on and watch that show!

What If ...

...teachers had the power to transform themselves into any animal of their choice? We pondered about it, analysed the facts, and became quite obsessed until we finally decided to (very seriously) answer the question ourselves.




Taken from Singteach!

Wa~~ Am seriously glad. My friends are going HK! I need to write a list of things that they can buy for me! Yay************** If I'm going Taiwan .. then i'll buy things for u also la .... Kekeke! Gogogo! Thanks in Advance!

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I had a talk with a wall

I just had a talk. With someone I love. Maybe someday it will be someone I loved. Avoidance? It is never a excellent way to sneak your way out of a situation. Face it.

Endless echoes ringing in my head. Yes, I think I am confused for once. Doubts cast forth from my mind and slowly pollutes my heart.

Mona Lisa

Created by Leonardo da Vinci in 1507 which was 501 years ago. Relic items are considered piece of precious art with time. Mona Lisa is famous for her facial expression. Question being "What is the reason beneath the smile?". There are critics that argued Mona Lisa was actually a female being, rather than an imaginary model, and was actually pregnant. One of the many reasons was due to the fact that she was unable to contain the happiness of haing a small life growing inside her and hence, the smile. Contrary, researchers have another point of view in explaining why this smile of Mona Lisa was so intriguing. The smile of deceit. Having to do something evil and feeling conceited about conquering good with evil. Innocent minds might be just looking at the surface. It's just a smile. Nothing more to it. Some mentioned that she was one that had been dead many times and learned the secrets of the grave. Again, people have different perspectives and views upon an item. There are more to it. Many more. Endless.

Who or what is she looking at? The artist? Is it Leonardo's imagination of the model? Is it what he had intended to paint and create a 'smile' that will be of interest of many in the future? Has he already perceived of what is mysterious and appealing so as to attract? Did he have a foresight of what is happening? Why was the painting deemed so intriguing after he died?

Is it only after a person's death that someone else will treasure of what's left behind?

Happy Children's Day

Counting Counting~!

Today's Friday! Thank God It's Friday. It's a wonderful routine to keep counting my blessings. =) Hopefully, it'll occur more even on Mondays instead on Fridays.. Muahahha~

Tired out ..

Never realise that I can be actually mentally, physically and emotionally tired. Everyday seemed to just zoomed past. No pause, no breaks. The day just keep rotating around me. Time manangement issues? I don't think so. I am a person who can jolly well manage her time pretty well. What went wrong? Overwhelming workload and competition everywhere. Besides, hostility felt makes me nauseous. My body seemed to take its toil by showing symptoms of falling sick, flu, slight fever, sore throat when all along I was eating heathly. I think phychogically, I proclaim myself to be sick. Excuses and excuses. I don't even have time to watch the bloody news on TV. No time for my boyfriend. I've taken up 3 additional tuition. Dun ask me why I'm digging my own grave. I need it. I'm physically shagged out today. Been travelling all around small Singapore. Sembawang, Boon Lay, Yishun, Woodlands, Ang Mo Kio later, and back to Yishun. A part of me wants to stay at home and rest my feet for a moment. However, it's real tempting when it's meeting friends and chill for hours till the cows get drunk and go home. Self-esteem wasn't that great either with people who have more experience than me in class. Basically, they are like walking geography dictionaries who can rattle on and on about god knows what. They are cool in their knowledge.. but at least, explain to the little ones. The best thing that happened this week was that my group members did a jolly excellent presentation that gave the wake up call for the rest that we ain't bimbos. Comes to the point where I feel I need to work extremely hard in order to excel beyond my limits. Am I reaching out beyond what I can acheive? One thing that I know for sure, I've got to try! *fume* It's like joining the education rat race! I hate this. For the salary .. Money is the root of all evil. How true is it. Just as long as I keep to my own principles and not step on others. I guess it's all right. I guess. I'm really looking forward to seeing Wilson for the first time in the week. Minus off the offline chats and phone conversation. I realise that he is also part of the wall that is supporting me through all this shit i'm going through. Silently. he doesnt talk much. At least I know he's there. I'm contended. Thursdays mornings will be indefinitely wonderful. Why? Free rides to school and it excludes the hassle of squeezing in with the rest of the people on buses. I hate the public transport. Why can't they make the bus BIGGER? Small island but high pace society. In future, I'll probably join Rah in Australia. Rear some stupid cows and milk them to death. Gosh. Time's up. About to go out and chill. *ROAR*

Thoughts

Well, many thoughts on my mind now. Been dragging time and time again to pack my room and throw away old stuff. Something which I hated doing. Is it because that's it simply such a chore to pack the old stuff? Not exactly. Maybe 5% I consider it to be a chore. The main reason was that whenever I am packing things, it meant that there is going to be another changing phase in my life. School to Work and now it's GOodbye to work. I remember clearly that I heaved a sigh of relief as I stepped out of the QH for the last time. I will miss the students. That's all. The rest, whatever, it doesn't matter.

I'm back to school again. I can't express my joy much as I felt the tinge of sadness as my friends are unable to join me. Kind of depressed at first. Especially the first dayo of school. Everything seems to be of a different light. THe same school. The same canteen. Everything remains the same. The feeling of 'wanting' to go back NIE is completely different. No more long conversations with 'stoning' sessions. No more coffee breaks as well as naps in between lessons. No more giggles and nonsensical talks. No more 'Coco Exotic' sessions. Hahah~ Sounds silly but I miss them. =) Now that I'm back in school alone. It's strange. Meeting ppl who are so much younger. Not that I can't blend in. Just that it comes to a point whereby I'm lazy to make anymore new friends. Everyday is just school and back home.

School life is still ok .... Considering that the lecturers like 'us' to come back. WTC keeps talking to me and he greeted us .. when we are having lunch in the canteen. .. (>O<) *Please leave me alone* Haven't adapt back to school environment yet. Will catch up pretty quick. Crossing my fingers and pray. Haha~

Hmm~ Been calling the tuition centres from Woodlands to Yishun. 20 odd . . I just wish that one of them will get back to me .. (TOT)

It's strange that one of my friends mentioned that I gave him a present after knowing him for 7 years. Well, it's the thought that counts. We bought the keychain knowing that he needs 'it'. All the best to him in whatever he wishes. We'll be cheering behind. =)

Looking forward to chilling out again with SL and Rah. When? Haha~ anyway, just received sms from u two. Later i'll bomb u back. No worries. Oh ya. Still can't believe that 'someone' actually threw her wallet away.. Haha.. *grinz*

XJ doing well as a S&A lady? Life's tough but you're strong. As long as you know what you did was right. No regrets.

I'm buying a lappie. Finally. Toshiba. Why this brand? Someone was asking. Hahah~ That is the only lappie that has an individual graphic card rather than a build in graphic card. Definitely a standalone card will be better for a gamer. Build on graphic cards suks. Lappie ~ Something to call it my own. Now everyone at home is eyeing my PC.. .

I love my b-dae present. Crunple Bag, Cardigan, 2 Tank Tops, Turtle Keychain, Watch. All of which I am using now. . Pretty useful

Aerobics was funny. The instructor .. She's like a naggy old mum doing exercise in front of me. . . Best of all, I've got a pal with me.. to endure the sessions (11).

What's on TV? No idea. Have to start working on assignments and all. Spare me.. I need entertainment. . .

I need a haircut.

The 12 Hour Marathon

Hmm~ Ever heard me competing in such a marathon?
What kind of marathon was that?!












A Sleep Marathon .....

Expansion

Another Mathematical Joke~ Compliments from SCM in School ~ @O@

How true is it?

Can Love be Measure in Units of Time?

Quoted from a source:

[[[[ 4 years relationship can also be gone in just a few words...
[[[[ Nothing is impossible...
[[[[ Lastly i don't believe in Everlasting Love anymore...hahaha...

Indeed, it may appear to be childish but it triggered a wave of disgust to the person who wrote this. Firstly, how can you use time to measure the greatest gift ever given to mankind - Love? You are simply demeaning yourself and your personal character by writing this. Immature is what I describe you. It's time for wake up call and think about why the relationship ended. Or in other words - Get off the ship and move on in life! What's there to lament about the time lost? Isn't the wonderful memories gathered from your previous girlfriend enough reasons for you to be a gentleman and wish her the best in life? How despicable to write this in a space for all to see and pity you whereby, in fact, you are the one who is pathetic in all sense. It's gone in just a few words? Silence speaks for itself. Frankly speaking, could it be that you are weak in your communication skills and could not fanthom what your other half wants in life. Love - do you really understand? I think not. Learning to let go and seeing her smile is worth more than possessing her as a whole if you really do love her. Lastly, go be a monk if you don't believe in everlasting love. I've said my piece.

Sick ... In the Brain?

I took MC today. . .

Impressed~!

Quote from my dearest:

[[[ Happy Birthday my Dear~ thanks for standing besides me all these 7 years. There's so many Up's & Down in my life that i basically lose count, but you're always there to walk with me. I know that you yourself are facing alot of problems at work but you just hide
all your feelings just not to give me more burden & stress.. Ever since my mum pass away i became a person who won't cry no matter
how harsh the circumstances i face. I just keeps on working & working no day/night. I don't really call myself a human then. Till i met u... I'm a free thinker, but if there's really God~ I thank him for giving u to me..

Happy 24th Birthday Adeline. May all you wishes come true~

I promise that no matter what happen (Caught up in a meeting, outstation, gathering etc.) anything~ so long as it falls on 18th July. I'll be there to celebrate with you. (WL members are my witnesses)

BTW I've bought a small piece of Cake with a small little candle ; gonna hear my ugly voice AGAIN~ (I don't Care >< u gonna endure it every year till the day my heart's stop beating)


Love You ---',-(@ ]]]

*speechless*

It's been a horrible week. Counting down to my last day in school. 14 workdays. Excluding weekends. Good samaritans go unrewarded. I've learnt my lesson in some way and another. No regrets. However, I'll still be a good samaritan no matter what deep shit comes by. That's me! Hhhpphhmm! Undefeated!

Investiture~

The Grand Finale includes 2 lullaby speeches, 600+ people queuing up, Harry Potter look alikes.. All in all, it wasn't really fun for me. It's sucking up my energy bit by bit.

So now, Congrats to all, my fellow classmates! As time pass by, friendship may fade. Be Gone ? Maybe? Some do stay on .. in my life. I'm just glad that some point in life, I've met and get acquainted with U, my NIE pals. From this day onwards, we walk different paths and I, from the bottom of my heart, wish that our paths might cross again.

Feeling Drained . . Yawns ..

The Timeline of Life

LOL... Whatever it is, the phases of life are determined and planned in God's Will.. *wink *wink*

Graduation~

I'm seated at Block B ~ Row L ~ Seat #8

Okies ... Who's sitting near me...?

Extra Invitation Card for SL's Grandpa at expense of Hot Cocoa.

July 6~ Everyone take leave and go back NIE for gown, scroll collection and mini celebration.

Oh. The 'specially designed' alumni sport bag. + gifts *wink *wink*

Further news via sms.

Period.

Redang Trip~

Supposed to write this a few days back?~ Haha~! Let me try ...

Redang Redang~ What more can I speak of except fun itself? =)
It was a trip filled with surprises, fun and excitement! Oh boy, what a trip! To cut things short~ It was indeed a thrilling experience for me~! Had intended to write in detail of all the happenings around the small island. Hmmm .. Kinda lazy to pen it down.

So there~! A List of things I remember as I write.........

1) Baby Sharks~! *No Mama Sharks~! Lucky!*
2) Ah Bang and Clique *Wow* What can I say?! Handsome? =D*
3) Beautiful Corals *Beyond description*
4) Shoals of fish swimming around
<<*Different colours, stun me for a few moments* 5) Food Food and Food *Buffet style breakfast, lunch and dinner...
<<*Gobbles Gobbles! Photos as evidence* 6) Lights out before 1am *Hmmm.. It's a tradition* 7) Toilet in the Bushes *Tada~!Butts out in the air* 8) 6 hours of waiting for another bus to arrive
<<*Bus broke down in the middle of no where* 9) Dark Tanned Skin *OF course!* 10) Hahah~ Bikini Babes?! *faint* 11) Mask Indulgence *Exception of Rah who was busy in Dreamland (`oo`)
<<* Pig by nature?* 12) Goal Goal Goal and World Cup Frenzy *GOAL****** 13) Snorkelling~ with me leeching off someone..
<<*Basically i was tagging along .. Pulling someone's life vest ... * 14) Breathing non-stop underwater with 50% heart attack chance
<<*Miracle? Muahha~ * 15) Full Bag of Tibits .. *Compliments of Wilson* 16) My Mini Fan *Useful, indeed, in extraordinary events* 17) Using saliva ... on snorkelling mask ..
<<*Prevent Misting underwater.. **eeeww** 18) Ocean Trench *It's real ~ ! True sight~! Not off the textbook, finally* 19) Playing Bridge by the swimming pool
<<*Though i suck big time at the game. Who's my partner?* 20) Water aerobics .. *We tried .. Only Rah was successful..
<<*Lane .. erm.. 10% successful .. Siewling 0% .. Mine was 50%? =P 21) Water current slamming against my snorkelling mask .. *It was scary..* 22) Where's da banana boat?! *We missed that one* 23) Sitting on the roof top of ferry ride .. *Only the girls have the priviledge!* 24) 695 Photos within 4 days with tons of videos! *A new record* 25) Cheerleading in swimming pool *Wow! We did it!* 26) "Sun block Lotion!" * A Neccessity* 27) You are my superwoman .. *First song of the night* 28) Snoring symphony *Lalalalal~* 29) Favourite Song of the islanders - Where is the Love by Black Eye Peas 30) The possibility of missing the bus ride back ..
<<*Because I was busy shopping for souveniors .. *My bad* 31) Lane's Oceanus Body Spray 32) Room 518 33) Lightning .. Struck .. and TV telecast was interrupted.
<<*We called the room receptionist and she said,
<<*"There's someone out there. Fixing the antenna .. at the rooftop" ..
<<*In the midst of thunder, rain and lightning. *Brave Soliders* 34) The other "Ah Beng" island resort.. *Feels like we're surrounded by mafia* 35) Beautiful sea, sky and me... Muahahahahhaha 36) Initial D ride back home in the dark. *Three cheers for the safe bus driver* 37) Doing somersaults in the swimming pool
<<*We are about to audition for a position in the circus...* 38) Packing food for a sick bloke in resort room .. *sob sob* 39) Taking photos underwater .. Thank you Lane! 40) The forever Siewling finger pose in almost all the photos .. *Ichi, Ni, San!* 41) Me: "I can't breathe! Can't Breathe! Water's in my googles!" ..
<<*That's me, freaking out .. 42) Jumping into the ocean .. With a BIG splash! Ho-ha~! 43) The infamous tune of the movie "Jaws" kept ringing in my ears .. 44) 9 bottles of mineral water .. *Dun ask me why* 45) Girls' Night out! Pretty Dresses .. 46) Hair Sylist - Rah in progress 47) Pomfret is a fish - Edible 48) S$10000 Fine for stealing corals or fish from the ocean.
<<*A big WARNING issued by islanders.
49) The ... Fat Sneaky Uncle .. With Sunglasses .. Peeping ... OMG.. *Puke*
50) SL's fearful screams ........ AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!! *She's afraid of the ocean...
51) Rah's Luo Han Yu Forehead .. *U're really unique..*
52) $1 Big Plate of Chicken Rice
53) What?! I made it to #53!?

There There~ The list goes on and on~ Sweet memories etched deeply and I thank those for making this trip possible with my $420 budget~ ^O^ Lane, Sarah, Siewling and of course, Adeline, Me, ... Muahahah =P ..

An absolute great getaway!

11-16 June 2006 was, indeed, a wonderful and thrilling experience for me. I would give hands all for a return trip to the beautiful island of Redang. *wink*wink*

P.S: SL .. Finally, I updated my blog.. 3 cheers for me?!
P.S: Rah .. Air plane the next time? *grin*
P.S: Lane .. Where's my present from Bangkok?

Touch Down!

Period.

Wa ha~! Chat Box Working~!

Went over to peep at Sarah's blog! Discover that there's this new Chat Box service that has less advertisement and simply easy to for code manipulation~

Go check it out in the 'Chat Session'!

Kekekekek~~~~~~

Mother's Day

Carnations! Prices of this type of flowers will surge beyond the normal market price. Same goes for roses on Valentine's Day. Are we allowed only to give flowers on special occasions? Hmm .. A point for the guys out there to take note of. It doesnt matter the day, date, time, etc. It's the surprise that ladies yearn.

Happy Mother's Day! Well, certainly not a day yet for me to celebrate on. My mother would certainly be pleased and touched beyond words today. Hmm .. Orphans, Single-Parent Families people must be having a horrible day. Imagine to feel the loss and hurt as they walked through the streets in the so-called festive mood of Mother's Day. It'll be like bringing back the pain that they had hidden deep in their hearts.

If I'm one of them, high chances I'll just bump at home. Anyway, it's just 24 hours, once a year. (>O<)'

Shadow

The sound of strong wind blowing through my windows woke me up in the middle of the night. It's dark and a little chilly. Peaceful though .. I felt.

As I lazily stretched out of my cosy bed, I saw..

A dark figure standing by the window. I stood speechless for a minute. Chills .. up my spine. Holy Cow..

Am I supposed to say 'HELLO'? Or Ignore .. Dang~ Movement. Head started to turn ..

-Grand Finale-

'Morning', she said. . . It was my mother .. (>O<)

"What the HELL are you standing by the window?! Freaking scared the wits out of me.."

Apparently, she was admiring the lightning that flashed across the sky. Blame it on my short-sightness .. Wow .. lol ..

All in all, I hushed her to bed and shut the windows after. Cosy bed and fall deep in sleep again~ (`oo`)Y

What a Night it was.

Late @ Night~

Well, .. I was trying not to be grouchy today. Simply can't. It's Exasperating when I am confirmed to the house trying not to walk around .. Hahah.. It looked Ok. No Swells. However, twist and turn, haha, there comes the irritating pain. I wonder whether I should probably take a club and give my foot a whack .. (O.O)

*sighs* Neatless to say, the holiday plan is definitely screwing up for me. No sports, no jumping around. Whatever. I have no hell of an idea what the sinseh was talking about. In the midst of giving me agony and pain, he could ramble on and on .. I'm not even tuning in.. *sweat* Hope that's the last I see of him. Otherwise, I'll definitely going to ask him to shut his gap. (>O<)

*Trying not to be Grouchy now*

-- Nice Things --

1) Stay at home the whole day, working on the website that host my pupils. Finally, it's completed. A sense of achievment? Perhaps. Not much though. Easy upload and such.
2) Spend my time in game and chatting with ppl. Cool. At least I get my lvl 69 Bard. No deaths and easy exp.
3) Watched Resident Evil. The zombies dun seem as scary as before. Though I did get some frights and shivers off the scenes of zombies appearing suddenly. How wonderful.

-- Holiday --

Things I would want to accomplish for my 3 week holidays. Of course, my never ending JP self learning book. It's really a thick book, not my fault that I can't finish reading. (>O<) Finish sewing my puppets, time to give as present to my loved ones. Go to church once in a while. Spend more time at home with family.. my doggie too. She needs love too. Update my personal website and add the photos in.

-- Thoughts -- (*Not for the Faint Hearted*)

Right at this point, I feel kind of sad. Study life is coming to an end. For a mere 2 year course, I enjoyed myself with my friends and all. Though assignments and attachments sucked big time, it was good. Way TOO good for me. Tough at first, because I was working before joining the 2 year course. Had to adapt to the study environment, that was 2 years back. Now, it's coming to an end. Just felt like I am going to join the rat race again. It's saddening. What would the future holds for me? Am I going to be a stand alone island or join the stinky rats? It's my nature to try my best in everything. Hence, the chances of joining the rat race would be high. Not what I had in mind. However, it's like a black hole that was swept you off your feet unnoticably and viola~ you're in the black hole! I hate it when people have high expectations of you. They wish to see you excel and work your ass off for them. On hind side, they might wish you to fall in pit hole, never to climb up anymore. Two different endings but they would win on the either. Sometimes I wish I am not working and enjoying somewhere leisurely. But, it's only 'I Wish' ..

Alot of people once asked me, why chose the teaching career. I would say, it's the money. Of course, it is. Besides that, I was tired of the sales line. It's tiring to face each and everyone with a guarded shield and beware of everyone and anyone. What was the most innocent job in the world? Besides, guarding the animals in the zoo, I guess, the next would be a teacher's job. At least, I'm facing innocent human beings MOST of the time rather than animals in the zoo. Now, I came to realise, politics occurs in all places except heaven and hell. Trust me, it's true.

The other day, I overheard a conversation of a causasian couple. Sweet-loving couple, no doubt about it. They were sharing with their friends, life back home in Canada. Wow.. Couldn't resist eavesdropping though. My bad. Anyway, they were chatting about their farm and environment. I remembered clearly, 2 horses, few sheeps and cows. Enough to make cheese and food to feed themselves. Now, stop for a while. Count my blessings. I have a PC, TV, Fridge full of food, etc .. What can I yearn for? I seriously need to count my blessings. 'They' felt so contented and proud of what they had. Looked happy and blessed and many more. Envy was what I felt. My favourite sentiments 'How I wish I could be like them' .. Once again, it's 'I Wish'..

My overall life plan in the past. Way back in the past. Get a teaching degree, a decent well paid job, marry, kids, death. Reflecting what I have now. Nothing. Great. Simply wonderful. Arrggh.. Though it's near. I can see the goal getting nearer. So what's the problem? In the process of attaining my goals, i think i might have unwittingly disregarded people whom I valued and treasure. God. Family. Love of my Life. Is it time to cast away my pursues and concentrate on these people instead? These are the worldly treasures, I know. I know the Bible by heart. It's bad when you know you are doing something wrong and still moving towards darkness. That's me now. The sense of guilt is always extremely great. Having a Christian boyfriend. Well, what can I say? I have no solution and I am unwilling to let go. I always hope and hope-ed, Show me the light, the way. I can't see. Something's blinding me. lol ..

Well, in my heart, I was seldom happy. Problems worn me down badly. The only time when I feel relax is when I am in bed hugging my plushies. At least, they won't talk or do anything. They are there 24/7 as and when I need them.

That's all I have today. Brillant. Now everyone would think that I have having Pre-Menstrual Stress or something. I did warn you beforehand though.

Well .. What can I say?

Heh~ Kids will be kids! No matter how mature they think they are~ Sometimes silly things happen in my class and it's quite hard to comprehend the minds of young children.

Text Type: Postcards. Everyone in my class has to write a postcard to me. Be it secrets, hobbies or daily activities, they are free to write down their thoughts and 'mail' it to me on my table.

There are a few cases which left me dumbfounded for moments.
Primary 4 Class - Age 10 .. Let's review the moments... (ToT)

5th Prize
"I am a robot"

4th Prize
"You are a kind and lovely teacher. But you also FIERCE! SHOUT! SCOLD! Sometimes, I scared .."


3rd Prize
"I love you very much, Miss Yan. Will you come and stay with me?"

2nd Prize
"Miss Yan .. I tell you a secret. I have 2 boyfriends.

1st Prize
"Can you be my mummy instead?"

Wow! .. *speechless* lol

Discrimination

Hmm.. Had a quick chat with my friend online today. She just graduated from a university in Cxnxdx. However, it was extremely difficult for her to settle for a job in another country. Why? Discrimination. Because she was not of their 'race'.

*sighs* It's kind of sad. All humans are made equal in God's sight. But others would term all other races as 2nd class ppl.. This is saddening.. I could almost imagine hell for my friend in a foreign country. Not even a call to ask her for interview because her name is in Chinese ..

Ha! The amusing thing I heard was that she flew all the way to HK and JP for interviews. . Wow .. Imagine the travelling expenses she incurred (>O<)

Anyway, she mentioned of coming back to apply for a teaching career. Which i immediately stopped her. It's just not worth coming back. WIth all the crap, teachers are experiecing here. It's best to stay away. . .

Well, I counted .. 12 more working days to freedom, I suppose. No more lesson plans or whatsoever and I am happily await my results for my final semester. 12 more days! Quite elated .. Hahaha ... I can already imagine the excitement of packing up my stuff on my last day in the school. Kekekke~ =P Not very sure about the rest of my friends. . . But indeed, for me, I will heave a sigh of relief.

I'm thinking of whether I should apply back to my Alma-mater.. Just cant decide.

At this point, I feel that another stage in my life is about to end. Simply because another chapter is going to start. But most of all, the feeling of uncertainty is in the air.

*BLAH BLAH~~~

Few people whom I'll like to Thank~
1) God .. His Grace is beyond what I can describe (*constantly caring for a lost sheep)
2) Family . . Brother, especially.. and Sister .. (*Touched beyond words)
3) My Boyfriend! He's always supportive of what I do. Even sometimes I get really busy and stay at home during weekends to complete my things. (**Compensate during holidays)
4) Xingjuan~! Hahah~ Though our 'arranged' meetup is always screwed up. The thought of you initiating a dinner is forever a pleasant surprise to me. =D (*lalala =P)

GOAL for the month of April ..
TO ROT AT HOME FOR A DAY!
It's been a long time since I day-dreamed... =/

Lesson Plans ..

12 lesson plans to do. Covering 21 periods is no joke. Espescially if you have to finish it within a day. It's so frustrating. Sitting in front of a computer for hours on a bright sunday morning.

I'm counting down every day, every hour, every minute. I wonder how much energy have i left? *sighs*

My New Tagboard!

OOoOOo~ Finally I managed to figure out the codes so that it fits nicely into my blog. =) Quite an accomplishment? lol =P Got to recode the length and width, spacing, etc .. It was fun though. Trying to read the HTML codings and try and error here and there.

Anyway, it's under the 'CHAT' tab. So ppl out there, make full use of it! =D *Hopefully* I'll be crossing my fingers.

And oh! Once you click submit, it would not appear directly on the screen. Hence, there is a need to refresh the page to see the newly added comment.

If you know what I mean ......... (O.O)''

Sick Sick

Have you ever felt that your stomach is bloated and you feel like vomitting right away? Well then, that's the kind of feeling i'm experiencing now. However, the only difference is that I'm not physically sick. Plain sick in the stomach with regards to lesson planning. This is supposed to be my holidays. Holidays are meant to be enjoyable and fun. On the contrary, it's like a living hell to me. Ok .. maybe not that extreme. . Maybe it's like u have to keep on walking in the desert to survive .. Muahah . I think sometimes things that happen will pull us down. Demoralise ppl and their passion to teach. It's quite pathetic. However, not to mention, there is a tiny chance that life will be better after graduation. However, real life experiences from friends in school can really shock you. Hence, people termed that schooling is still the best years in life where we are shelter by the politics and bullshit everywhere around us.

Practically, I can imagine myself with tons of paper being churned well in my stomach. Hopefully, it will surfaced soon and vomit it out. *sighs* Whoever invented writing a lesson plan must be a retard or something of that line.

Staying at home all day sitting in front of my PC isnt great at all. Back hurts, eye hurts, every part of my body feel mistreated. Arrggh~ Gimme a break.. I need it.

OooO.. Thinking of taking a break. I can't wait to swim in the waters of Redang and see the sea creatures! Hopefully not the dangerous type of poisonous fish. I really hope plans will turn out well. Meanwhile, I need to check whether I have the budget, if not.. I'll just go to the public swimming pool.. *sob sob ..

Why cant there be money that falls from the sky? Gosh! it's bed time. No more grumbles. Tomorrow will be a better one! Definitely!

2 Sides - 1 Lie, 1 Truth?

Why? Things that happened, was it the truth that was told? Or was it because the other party would tend to elaborate and add in juicy slices to make it more dramatic? It's saddening and disappointing to know that the time spent on consoling and giving encouragement is given to the someone who spoke the 'truth'.

The pieces fit in and the 'truth' that you mentioned disappeared. Bringing along was feelings of disgust and disappointment.

Was there some truth in it? Maybe there is. But it sounded like the sky had fallen on you and everyone had to cramp in to your little comfort area to make you feel welcome and loved. Could it be that it's your fault? Think about it. Maybe it is.

Anyway, the case is closed, I supposed. Best of luck to whoever is reading this. Just a little moral learning at the end of my blog, best to listen to both sides of the story first before giving anyone any help at all.

Peace.

Light Pollution

How nice it would be to see the stars in the sky at night. Clear sky and bright stars~ It would be a wonderful and magnificent sight!

It's here~!

Finally, the long anticipated holidays is here! This week had been a trying week for me. A bomb attack by my NIE sup is not enough, came another raidings of Term 1 book checking. Though it didnt entirely was thrown at me. My CTs were the ones involved. Hence, I was piled up in books, files and exercise books. What a week. Late lunches and lack of sleep. Wow .. I didnt know I had so much tolerance for all these stuff that flew down from the sky.

First observation wasnt really a success. 1 cried, 2 quarreled, 1 said "Why U stare at me?" ... Hahaha.. I can feel cold sweat beads dripping down. Now i can truly understand the meaning 'In Cold Sweat' ... NSC was right behind watching .. It must have been a dramatic experience for him to see this wonderful class of mine.. Pass the first observation .. At least I passed.. lol

Well, today, I was like carrying a 1okg load of books home. I didnt realise that I had so many things to bring back. Textbooks, stationaries, notes, etc .. All packed .. Just in case, I need those for my lesson planning during the hols.

This weekend's going to be a busy one. Weddings to attend on Sat and Sun. God bless both families.

Table tennis session tomorrow. *sighs* Cannot make it in time as wedding will be in the morning... (ToT)

Supposed to go for retail therapy this afternoon ... Hahah .. But it slipped my mind to sms and organise. Hope I dun get *poke by ppl when I meet them .. Muahahahah~~

Monday: Tuition in the Morning
KTV session afternoon.. with my colleagues in school. *Speechless*
Tuesday: Available
Wednesday: Aerobics Date in the evening with Siewling
Thursday: Available
Friday: Available
Saturday: Boyfriend Day
Sunday: Boyfriend Day

Please book in advance. W~~ Muahahha~

Things I need to accomplish
1) Beauty Sleep
2) Lesson Planning
3) Hair Cut
4) Retail Therapy
5) Meet Xingjuan *Tons of things here I need to pass to U .. Getting more ar~~
6) Hmmmmmmm..... Play FFXI

I miss wearing jeans .. *Arrgghh~

Tough Road Ahead!

Olga J. Weiss wrote this poem The Road Is too Rough

"The road is too rough," I said,
"Dear Lord, there are stones that hurt me so."
And He said, "Dear child, I understand,
I walked it long ago."
"But there's a cool green path," I said;
"Let me walk there for a time."
"No child," He gently answered me,
"The green path does not climb."
"My burden," I said, "Is far too great,
How can I bear it so?"
"My child," He said, "I remember the weight;
I carried My cross, you know."
But I said, "I wish there were friends with me
Who would make my way their own."
"Oh, yes," He said, "Gethsemane
Was hard to bear alone."
And so I climb the stony path,
Content at last to know
That where my Master had not gone,
I would not need to go.
And strangely then I found new friends,
The burden grew less sore;
And I remember - long ago
He went that way before.

How Bad is Your Temper?

CANCER JUNE 21 - JULY 21

Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself. You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper. If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly. But that does not mean you do not have a temper. When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words. Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

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ARIES MARCH 21 - APRIL 20

Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to apologies, which makes them easier to forgive.


TAURUS APRIL 21 - MAY 20

You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose your cool, people don’t know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes you’ve made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.


GEMINI MAY 21 - June 29

You are recognized by your cheerful disposition and your jovial nature is easily susceptible to anger. In fact, you are the best person to have around when there is an ugly scene at a party you can bring the warring factions together quite diplomatically. But when you lose cool, you yell and scream and will not listen to reason. You must have the last word in a wordy duel. Your capacity to argue aggressively is matched only by your seductive charm.


CANCER JUNE 21 - JULY 21

Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself. You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper. If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly. But that does not mean you do not have a temper. When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words. Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

LEO JULY 22 - AUGUST 21

If anyone has total control over their emotions, it is you. But then, you can be described as stiff, cold and uncaring. You are known to lack spontaneity but you really don’t care about opinions. You don’t like to create scenes and will never accept invitations to a party where you suspect the presence of an unruly lot. But your very presence seems challenging to some and they take vicarious pleasure in your disquiet. When angry you can use critical language. A dressing down can humiliate your opponent, causing a strain between both of you forever.


VIRGO AUGUST 22 - SEPTEMBER 21

Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent. When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand. You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall. You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser. You feel that others are trying to persecute you and don’t quite respect your opinions. When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.


LIBRA SEPTEMBER 22 - OCTOBER 22

Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac? Well, it’s true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry. You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality. You also think you are above things like anger. But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood. Your family or those very close to you know you better. You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.


SCORPIO OCTOBER 23 - NOVEMBER 21

Of course you don’t lose your cool. But your very demeanour (manner) projects haughtiness (arrogance, pride), pride and grand disdain (disregard) for lesser mortals (human). Others are often found saying that anger sits on your nose and you are raring to give your piece mind to the first person that try to be funny with you. You are selective in the choice of your friends, and have a low tolerance for the superfluous (extra) types. Your tongue-lashing (attack) is generally in a soft hissing tone for when you scream, your voice tends to get shrill and loud and you do hate drawing attention to yourself! When upset, you are angrier with yourself for having shown weakness, for the last thing that Scorpio wants to show is being out of control.

SAGITTARIUS NOVEMBER 22 - DECEMBER 20

You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake. You’re also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you’re upset with them.


CAPRICORN DECEMBER 21 - JANUARY 19

Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see thing with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.


AQUARIUS JANUARY 20 - FEBRUARY 18

You are noble and kind and dislike losing control over your emotions. It is very rare for you to get angry. You are also the pacifier in situations that involve arguments. It is always your endeavor to be perfect and socially correct in your behavior and attitude, but if misunderstood and slighted you can give in to an angry outburst. You will shout and scream and then walk out from the scene. You cannot easily forget the situation and will be bitter about it for a long time.


PISCES FEBRUARY 19 - MARCH 20

The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to others’ feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up. Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.

Tomorrow's Friday!

I am seriously glad that this week is over. Having a teacher sitting at the back of the class is kind of intimdating for me. It makes me nervous and lost for words. Prounciation is already quite bad and with this amount of unseen stress adds on to whatever bad stuffs that is coming my way.

Luckily, it's only for my english lessons. I admit that my english is not strong enough and hence, the difficultly in teaching verbs, nouns, adverbial phrases, etc. It's killing me. I think I need to grab some books on basic grammar and read before having the lessons with the children. Arrrgghh~~

Science and Maths were great! Such a drastic contrast between the English and these 2 subjects. I pray that I will get less English lessons when I starts to teach in July. In my school that I will be bonded for 3 years. ..

Primary 2 kids are lovely. They can get you involved in everything. They come up to you when they want to drink water. When their rulers are lost. When their hankies disappear (Which is actually on the floor). When their books went missing (It is in their bags). They can get on my nerves everynow and then. But But BUT, when they smiled at u bashfully, it seemed to melt my heart away. They're so CUTE !!! Can't stand the sweetness in them! Gosh~ The best thing is to teach lower primary students and face a bunch of cute little boys and girls!

School ain't that bad after all, I guess! It's a love and hate relationship!

Well .. What can I say?

Signs of Global Warming~

Hehehehhe~~~~~ Specially for our EAG Geography Students!

Bored Bored!

I' m
M entally Tired

B ored
O posite of
R elax
E nergy - Drained
D ead Fish

So much for acoustic poems .... it bites!

Pythagoras Theorem

I find this hilarious .. So wanna share with my friends (*^o^*)Y

Hols~

14 April 2006 - 7 May 2006 CHEERS!!!

Enrichment-Induction Programme

1) All graduating trainee teachers are required to attend a 2-3 week compulsory enrichment-cum-induction programme, which will commence immediately after the end of the NIE examinations (i.e. 8 May 06 for graduating Dip Ed and BA/BSc cohorts and 29 May 06 for graduating PGDE cohorts). For trainees repeating modules and graduating in this semester, please check with NIE, Foundation Programme Admin Office on the dates that you are required to attend the enrichment-cum-induction programme and obtain approval from your Principal to attend the programme.

Posting to School

2) You will be posted to school immediately after the enrichment-cum-induction programme. The posting date would be 22 May 06 for graduating Dip Ed and BA/BSc cohorts and 12 Jun 06 for graduating PGDE cohorts. A posting memo will be sent to you about 1 week prior to your posting date. You are therefore required to report to your posted school on the date as indicated in the posting memo. Failure to do so will result in disciplinary action being taken against you. Those who have to repeat failed module(s) will be required to return to NIE from their posted schools to complete their course on a no-pay leave basis.

This Little Boy I Know~

Well, he's more of like my little brother and often cheers me up with cute and silly stuff when I'm feeling down. He's chirpy and incredibly filled with tons of internet stuff! Thanks! =D~~

Sharing with you~

The Kenya Monsters!

Check it out~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ **ROAR**

New Blogskin

Well, I dunno what's got into me. Could be the overwhelming week I had .. Hmmm .. Struggling with my other peers during practicum is tough. Environment was certainly not of an excellent one. Indeed, as some might know, it's almost 100% unfriendly.

Again, I'm supposed to be doing my lesson planning. But hack, America Idol is on show and 0% mood to start whatever I am supposed to start. Spent quite some time trying to sort out the html coding for this blogskin and such. In fact, i think i enjoy programming rather than teaching. I can sit still in front of the computer for hours and be totally obsess in codes. On the other hand, lesson planning and teaching strategies seemed to bore me. Am I in the wrong line? I begin to doubt myself. In any case, the bond's been signed and time is not pausing or stopping for anyone.

Which is why I like this blogskin. It's a portrayal of a girl waiting for a bus, of course, at a bus stop. This is my bus stop in virtual world~ Muahah~ I can take my time to write my thoughts and loads of grumbles even though reality is ticking again. Moreover, check out the facial expression of the gal in the blog skin. I can't say it looked exactly like me. But I just adore the sleepy and dreamy appearance of her. The world could just past by her while she's dreaming away. =)

I have 2 wedding dinners to attend in the month of March. God Bless them all~ and bless my money too.

Time to start something ? Yea~ Sleep's on the way.

整体运势

肖狗 (戌) 的狗年运程 1946 1958 1970 1982 1994 2006

事业：肖狗人遇上狗年，虽谓太岁当头坐，无喜必有祸。不过你大可放心，今年你只要不胡乱投资，肯努力工作，事业上还是有良好的变动；年尾的运势较好，尤其在农历六月、七月、九月、十月、十二月，任何大计划，只要你不光说，肯行动必然有所成果。

财运：财运方面中规中矩，其实今年运势 较为不利靠偏求发迹的朋友，因为很容易造成钱财破损,慎防入不敷出而向他人借钱, 欠下一大笔款项。

感情：未有伴侣的朋友别求之太急，也有可能单身比坠入爱河的生活来得轻松写意；热恋者可在农历五月、七月份缔结良缘，不然的话就延迟到另一年会更为理想。

健康：肖狗的朋友小病频频，抵抗力弱，你要提防招惹流行病，若旧病复发，更需要尽快就医，不好拖延。

你的幸运颜色是红色、紫色；幸运号码是4，8，7，8

Just in case..

Just in case, it slipped my mind again ..

1) Shoes from Far East **Same as Rah's .. Covered shoes for practicum .. Maybe black.. Easier to mix and match with any outfit..

2) My BIG bag from Marina Square .. I'm still sick of that place..

3) 2 Pants from Marsiling Shophouse .. One black .. One grey .. I feel much safer with pants .. Can run around in school ..

4) Tops .. Any .. as long as it's nice and comfy.. Maybe i'll go back This Fashion and buy .. Hehehehehehhe~~~ Need to call Siewling for IC again ..

5) Hair cut ? Trim? Let's see whether I have the urge as and when I feel like it.

6) Stickers from any Pasar Malam .. 8 for $1 .. I need those..

Whatever~

Well, here am I at home, lazing as usual .. This week had been a real challenging week. Parents ain't in Singapore and I have the doggie all by my own. Which is a REAL CHALLENGE to me. It gets kind of scary and creepy that she wakes up in the middle of the night and starts barking at some auspicious spot ... Most of the time, near the windows ..

Hence, my conclusion is that, she is afraid of the wind ... (>o<) I find it hard to believe too .. That a dog's afraid of the wind ... Gonna train to build her courage .. (=0=)

I'm going back to Qihua afterall. In fact, was quite elated when I learnt of the news. My friend's already there as a contract teacher and I am comforted to know that there's someone I know and trust, already in the school. Bless me.

ooOOo.. Someone's going to another country for a year .. =( It's going to be tough. You lose some, you gain another. So take care, friend .. Life still go on.. I need to go over your house for visiting .. I missed it last year ..

As expected, this year wouldn't be a better year than the last. In fact, I think it will be worse. All of us have problems and some chose to share, some chose not to. I'm the kind of person who chose not to. Why? Already it's sad, no point passing the woes to another person. I'll rather make another person happy than sad. Hehe~ Besides, I'm self-centered ... as termed by my friends too .. (>o<)'' In a sense, I am. Maybe till my breaking point, I'll pour out my heart to the walls at home or to my doggie.

New Year Resolution .. None. I'll take each step at a time. Slow and steady in order to balance my life and such. Friends are scarce and depleting as time passes. Though the meet-ups isn't as frequent as before, true friends stay and withstand the test of time. Marriage, out of question, we're ready but No, it's beyond our control.

Never in my life, I stopped and ponder over the phrase "Money is the root of all evil". Perhaps I am truly able to grasp the meaning now. I detest and wish it will disppear .. Will it? Afterall, it's a wish. How many wishes do come true? None, I suppose.

Blessings today? I completed my Advanced Diploma in Computer Studies. Next in my education path? It depends. I don't want to plan in advance. God will take care of my tomorrow. "Degree" is in the air now. SIM, Crossover, etc is surfacing again. Especially this time of the day when we are about to finish our NIE course. I'm in no rush into commiting myself into a degree as yet. I'll wait and see if time and opportunity permits me to pursue my degree.

I just miss my life years back. At least, I exist.

A happy heart makes the face cheerful,

but heartache crushes the spirit.

(Proverbs 15:13)

Despaired

Yes, I am. Sometimes I feel that life has no meaning.
Why strive when there is no tomorrow?

I'm Bumped Out~

Again~ Blogging is a sort of place to nag and grumble about the things that happened around me. As such, here I am about to start..

It, of course, involves life in NIE .. Who on earth would be of the right mind to squeeze the assignments within 2 months... It's almost a task meant for incredible hulk .. and I aint 'it'

I'm like caught up in the rush or even the frenzy to finish my assignments . . and not a bit liking it .. Guess I'll probably learn my stress management pretty well at the end of NIE ..

Frustration is what I feel now .. about ? About my cup of green tea has turned cold. About the fan that's keeping my feet cold .. About the lack of time and personal space for myself .. About the outing at Woodlands that was cancel .. Practically, at this point in time, I can find fault with everything and anything.

I feel that I need lots of personal space and time to sort my thoughts out. But seldom i got the chance to do so. In the end, the thought bubbles seemed to accumulate and waiting for the right chance to burst and explode .. Leaving me clueless about what to deal with it ..

Period.