Tired out ..

Never realise that I can be actually mentally, physically and emotionally tired. Everyday seemed to just zoomed past. No pause, no breaks. The day just keep rotating around me. Time manangement issues? I don't think so. I am a person who can jolly well manage her time pretty well. What went wrong? Overwhelming workload and competition everywhere. Besides, hostility felt makes me nauseous. My body seemed to take its toil by showing symptoms of falling sick, flu, slight fever, sore throat when all along I was eating heathly. I think phychogically, I proclaim myself to be sick. Excuses and excuses. I don't even have time to watch the bloody news on TV. No time for my boyfriend. I've taken up 3 additional tuition. Dun ask me why I'm digging my own grave. I need it. I'm physically shagged out today. Been travelling all around small Singapore. Sembawang, Boon Lay, Yishun, Woodlands, Ang Mo Kio later, and back to Yishun. A part of me wants to stay at home and rest my feet for a moment. However, it's real tempting when it's meeting friends and chill for hours till the cows get drunk and go home. Self-esteem wasn't that great either with people who have more experience than me in class. Basically, they are like walking geography dictionaries who can rattle on and on about god knows what. They are cool in their knowledge.. but at least, explain to the little ones. The best thing that happened this week was that my group members did a jolly excellent presentation that gave the wake up call for the rest that we ain't bimbos. Comes to the point where I feel I need to work extremely hard in order to excel beyond my limits. Am I reaching out beyond what I can acheive? One thing that I know for sure, I've got to try! *fume* It's like joining the education rat race! I hate this. For the salary .. Money is the root of all evil. How true is it. Just as long as I keep to my own principles and not step on others. I guess it's all right. I guess. I'm really looking forward to seeing Wilson for the first time in the week. Minus off the offline chats and phone conversation. I realise that he is also part of the wall that is supporting me through all this shit i'm going through. Silently. he doesnt talk much. At least I know he's there. I'm contended. Thursdays mornings will be indefinitely wonderful. Why? Free rides to school and it excludes the hassle of squeezing in with the rest of the people on buses. I hate the public transport. Why can't they make the bus BIGGER? Small island but high pace society. In future, I'll probably join Rah in Australia. Rear some stupid cows and milk them to death. Gosh. Time's up. About to go out and chill. *ROAR*