Discrimination

Hmm.. Had a quick chat with my friend online today. She just graduated from a university in Cxnxdx. However, it was extremely difficult for her to settle for a job in another country. Why? Discrimination. Because she was not of their 'race'.

*sighs* It's kind of sad. All humans are made equal in God's sight. But others would term all other races as 2nd class ppl.. This is saddening.. I could almost imagine hell for my friend in a foreign country. Not even a call to ask her for interview because her name is in Chinese ..

Ha! The amusing thing I heard was that she flew all the way to HK and JP for interviews. . Wow .. Imagine the travelling expenses she incurred (>O<)

Anyway, she mentioned of coming back to apply for a teaching career. Which i immediately stopped her. It's just not worth coming back. WIth all the crap, teachers are experiecing here. It's best to stay away. . .

Well, I counted .. 12 more working days to freedom, I suppose. No more lesson plans or whatsoever and I am happily await my results for my final semester. 12 more days! Quite elated .. Hahaha ... I can already imagine the excitement of packing up my stuff on my last day in the school. Kekekke~ =P Not very sure about the rest of my friends. . . But indeed, for me, I will heave a sigh of relief.

I'm thinking of whether I should apply back to my Alma-mater.. Just cant decide.

At this point, I feel that another stage in my life is about to end. Simply because another chapter is going to start. But most of all, the feeling of uncertainty is in the air.

*BLAH BLAH~~~

Few people whom I'll like to Thank~
1) God .. His Grace is beyond what I can describe (*constantly caring for a lost sheep)
2) Family . . Brother, especially.. and Sister .. (*Touched beyond words)
3) My Boyfriend! He's always supportive of what I do. Even sometimes I get really busy and stay at home during weekends to complete my things. (**Compensate during holidays)
4) Xingjuan~! Hahah~ Though our 'arranged' meetup is always screwed up. The thought of you initiating a dinner is forever a pleasant surprise to me. =D (*lalala =P)

GOAL for the month of April ..
TO ROT AT HOME FOR A DAY!
It's been a long time since I day-dreamed... =/

Lesson Plans ..

12 lesson plans to do. Covering 21 periods is no joke. Espescially if you have to finish it within a day. It's so frustrating. Sitting in front of a computer for hours on a bright sunday morning.

I'm counting down every day, every hour, every minute. I wonder how much energy have i left? *sighs*

My New Tagboard!

OOoOOo~ Finally I managed to figure out the codes so that it fits nicely into my blog. =) Quite an accomplishment? lol =P Got to recode the length and width, spacing, etc .. It was fun though. Trying to read the HTML codings and try and error here and there.

Anyway, it's under the 'CHAT' tab. So ppl out there, make full use of it! =D *Hopefully* I'll be crossing my fingers.

And oh! Once you click submit, it would not appear directly on the screen. Hence, there is a need to refresh the page to see the newly added comment.

If you know what I mean ......... (O.O)''

Sick Sick

Have you ever felt that your stomach is bloated and you feel like vomitting right away? Well then, that's the kind of feeling i'm experiencing now. However, the only difference is that I'm not physically sick. Plain sick in the stomach with regards to lesson planning. This is supposed to be my holidays. Holidays are meant to be enjoyable and fun. On the contrary, it's like a living hell to me. Ok .. maybe not that extreme. . Maybe it's like u have to keep on walking in the desert to survive .. Muahah . I think sometimes things that happen will pull us down. Demoralise ppl and their passion to teach. It's quite pathetic. However, not to mention, there is a tiny chance that life will be better after graduation. However, real life experiences from friends in school can really shock you. Hence, people termed that schooling is still the best years in life where we are shelter by the politics and bullshit everywhere around us.

Practically, I can imagine myself with tons of paper being churned well in my stomach. Hopefully, it will surfaced soon and vomit it out. *sighs* Whoever invented writing a lesson plan must be a retard or something of that line.

Staying at home all day sitting in front of my PC isnt great at all. Back hurts, eye hurts, every part of my body feel mistreated. Arrggh~ Gimme a break.. I need it.

OooO.. Thinking of taking a break. I can't wait to swim in the waters of Redang and see the sea creatures! Hopefully not the dangerous type of poisonous fish. I really hope plans will turn out well. Meanwhile, I need to check whether I have the budget, if not.. I'll just go to the public swimming pool.. *sob sob ..

Why cant there be money that falls from the sky? Gosh! it's bed time. No more grumbles. Tomorrow will be a better one! Definitely!

2 Sides - 1 Lie, 1 Truth?

Why? Things that happened, was it the truth that was told? Or was it because the other party would tend to elaborate and add in juicy slices to make it more dramatic? It's saddening and disappointing to know that the time spent on consoling and giving encouragement is given to the someone who spoke the 'truth'.

The pieces fit in and the 'truth' that you mentioned disappeared. Bringing along was feelings of disgust and disappointment.

Was there some truth in it? Maybe there is. But it sounded like the sky had fallen on you and everyone had to cramp in to your little comfort area to make you feel welcome and loved. Could it be that it's your fault? Think about it. Maybe it is.

Anyway, the case is closed, I supposed. Best of luck to whoever is reading this. Just a little moral learning at the end of my blog, best to listen to both sides of the story first before giving anyone any help at all.

Peace.

Light Pollution

How nice it would be to see the stars in the sky at night. Clear sky and bright stars~ It would be a wonderful and magnificent sight!

It's here~!

Finally, the long anticipated holidays is here! This week had been a trying week for me. A bomb attack by my NIE sup is not enough, came another raidings of Term 1 book checking. Though it didnt entirely was thrown at me. My CTs were the ones involved. Hence, I was piled up in books, files and exercise books. What a week. Late lunches and lack of sleep. Wow .. I didnt know I had so much tolerance for all these stuff that flew down from the sky.

First observation wasnt really a success. 1 cried, 2 quarreled, 1 said "Why U stare at me?" ... Hahaha.. I can feel cold sweat beads dripping down. Now i can truly understand the meaning 'In Cold Sweat' ... NSC was right behind watching .. It must have been a dramatic experience for him to see this wonderful class of mine.. Pass the first observation .. At least I passed.. lol

Well, today, I was like carrying a 1okg load of books home. I didnt realise that I had so many things to bring back. Textbooks, stationaries, notes, etc .. All packed .. Just in case, I need those for my lesson planning during the hols.

This weekend's going to be a busy one. Weddings to attend on Sat and Sun. God bless both families.

Table tennis session tomorrow. *sighs* Cannot make it in time as wedding will be in the morning... (ToT)

Supposed to go for retail therapy this afternoon ... Hahah .. But it slipped my mind to sms and organise. Hope I dun get *poke by ppl when I meet them .. Muahahahah~~

Monday: Tuition in the Morning
KTV session afternoon.. with my colleagues in school. *Speechless*
Tuesday: Available
Wednesday: Aerobics Date in the evening with Siewling
Thursday: Available
Friday: Available
Saturday: Boyfriend Day
Sunday: Boyfriend Day

Please book in advance. W~~ Muahahha~

Things I need to accomplish
1) Beauty Sleep
2) Lesson Planning
3) Hair Cut
4) Retail Therapy
5) Meet Xingjuan *Tons of things here I need to pass to U .. Getting more ar~~
6) Hmmmmmmm..... Play FFXI

I miss wearing jeans .. *Arrgghh~

Tough Road Ahead!

Olga J. Weiss wrote this poem The Road Is too Rough

"The road is too rough," I said,
"Dear Lord, there are stones that hurt me so."
And He said, "Dear child, I understand,
I walked it long ago."
"But there's a cool green path," I said;
"Let me walk there for a time."
"No child," He gently answered me,
"The green path does not climb."
"My burden," I said, "Is far too great,
How can I bear it so?"
"My child," He said, "I remember the weight;
I carried My cross, you know."
But I said, "I wish there were friends with me
Who would make my way their own."
"Oh, yes," He said, "Gethsemane
Was hard to bear alone."
And so I climb the stony path,
Content at last to know
That where my Master had not gone,
I would not need to go.
And strangely then I found new friends,
The burden grew less sore;
And I remember - long ago
He went that way before.

How Bad is Your Temper?

CANCER JUNE 21 - JULY 21

Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself. You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper. If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly. But that does not mean you do not have a temper. When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words. Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

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ARIES MARCH 21 - APRIL 20

Nothing seems to ruffle you more than a lack of discipline, disloyalty and decorum. But Arians are also known to go into a rage very easily when challenged. Those of you who have been on the receiving end of the Aries temper know that if not calmed down they can even get violent. But one thing is certain if the opponent remains calm and does not react to their outburst, Arians cool down very fast. They are also the first to apologies, which makes them easier to forgive.


TAURUS APRIL 21 - MAY 20

You are generally quiet and have control over your emotions. It is difficult to predict what will upset you, so when you do lose your cool, people don’t know how to react. Your temper is like that of a raging bull, and anyone trying to pacify you will be the first one to get a verbal bashing. You generally get upset when you are concerned or when people accuse you of doing something wrong. You also hate being reminded about mistakes you’ve made in the past. You also have the potential to be terribly vindictive if rubbed the wrong way.


GEMINI MAY 21 - June 29

You are recognized by your cheerful disposition and your jovial nature is easily susceptible to anger. In fact, you are the best person to have around when there is an ugly scene at a party you can bring the warring factions together quite diplomatically. But when you lose cool, you yell and scream and will not listen to reason. You must have the last word in a wordy duel. Your capacity to argue aggressively is matched only by your seductive charm.


CANCER JUNE 21 - JULY 21

Considering how charming, caring and kind you are, you dislike unpleasant scenes, much less creating one yourself. You have great tolerance and rarely get provoked into losing your temper. If someone is unreasonable or trying to create trouble, you are more likely to walk away quietly. But that does not mean you do not have a temper. When angry, in your effort to control your emotions, you tremble, your hands get sweaty and sometimes you fumble for words. Tears roll down your eyes easily and the opponent is touched by your innocence and will seek an apology immediately.

LEO JULY 22 - AUGUST 21

If anyone has total control over their emotions, it is you. But then, you can be described as stiff, cold and uncaring. You are known to lack spontaneity but you really don’t care about opinions. You don’t like to create scenes and will never accept invitations to a party where you suspect the presence of an unruly lot. But your very presence seems challenging to some and they take vicarious pleasure in your disquiet. When angry you can use critical language. A dressing down can humiliate your opponent, causing a strain between both of you forever.


VIRGO AUGUST 22 - SEPTEMBER 21

Most of you are gentle and have full control over your emotions but those of you given to temper tantrums can certainly get violent. When see things with rage, you yell and shout and tend to break things lying close at hand. You can even harm yourself by banging your hands on a glass top table or wall. You should never get into any argument, for you are a sore loser. You feel that others are trying to persecute you and don’t quite respect your opinions. When hurt, you can also hold grudges forever.


LIBRA SEPTEMBER 22 - OCTOBER 22

Did someone say that you are the charmers of the zodiac? Well, it’s true. Few have ever seen you ruffled or angry. You are very conscious of your image, and you believe that anger distorts your face and personality. You also think you are above things like anger. But wait before you get into self-congratulatory mood. Your family or those very close to you know you better. You have an unmatched temper amongst all the zodiac signs, and what makes it worse is your capacity to justify it.


SCORPIO OCTOBER 23 - NOVEMBER 21

Of course you don’t lose your cool. But your very demeanour (manner) projects haughtiness (arrogance, pride), pride and grand disdain (disregard) for lesser mortals (human). Others are often found saying that anger sits on your nose and you are raring to give your piece mind to the first person that try to be funny with you. You are selective in the choice of your friends, and have a low tolerance for the superfluous (extra) types. Your tongue-lashing (attack) is generally in a soft hissing tone for when you scream, your voice tends to get shrill and loud and you do hate drawing attention to yourself! When upset, you are angrier with yourself for having shown weakness, for the last thing that Scorpio wants to show is being out of control.

SAGITTARIUS NOVEMBER 22 - DECEMBER 20

You are insensible and generally have no complete control over your emotions. You do get angry quickly and others marvel at your anger levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will remove your anger waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just his mistake. You’re also likely to totally sever ties with someone when you’re upset with them.


CAPRICORN DECEMBER 21 - JANUARY 19

Few will believe that a hardcore practical and materialistic person like you is capable of sensitivity and genuine emotions. You project a hard exterior but are actually very sensitive, a trait you successfully hide from others. You can see thing with anger but will not betray your feelings. But then, there are times that even you cannot control your temper. Under such circumstances you can shout and scream, more with frustration at the situation than with anger at any particular person. Your outbursts can shock others and can make them feel guilty too.


AQUARIUS JANUARY 20 - FEBRUARY 18

You are noble and kind and dislike losing control over your emotions. It is very rare for you to get angry. You are also the pacifier in situations that involve arguments. It is always your endeavor to be perfect and socially correct in your behavior and attitude, but if misunderstood and slighted you can give in to an angry outburst. You will shout and scream and then walk out from the scene. You cannot easily forget the situation and will be bitter about it for a long time.


PISCES FEBRUARY 19 - MARCH 20

The only thing that can be said about you dreamers is that you appear even more attractive when angry. You are very sensitive to others’ feelings, so you rarely hurt them. But when others tend to hurt you, then things take a nasty turn. You will yell and use harsh words and feel inclined to shake everything and everyone up. Your creative imagination is at its best when angry, and you tend to get pretty dramatic. When upset, you refuse to listen to reason and wish to be left alone. But once you calm down, you repent your tantrums and seek forgiveness. SO nobody can be upset with you for too long.

Tomorrow's Friday!

I am seriously glad that this week is over. Having a teacher sitting at the back of the class is kind of intimdating for me. It makes me nervous and lost for words. Prounciation is already quite bad and with this amount of unseen stress adds on to whatever bad stuffs that is coming my way.

Luckily, it's only for my english lessons. I admit that my english is not strong enough and hence, the difficultly in teaching verbs, nouns, adverbial phrases, etc. It's killing me. I think I need to grab some books on basic grammar and read before having the lessons with the children. Arrrgghh~~

Science and Maths were great! Such a drastic contrast between the English and these 2 subjects. I pray that I will get less English lessons when I starts to teach in July. In my school that I will be bonded for 3 years. ..

Primary 2 kids are lovely. They can get you involved in everything. They come up to you when they want to drink water. When their rulers are lost. When their hankies disappear (Which is actually on the floor). When their books went missing (It is in their bags). They can get on my nerves everynow and then. But But BUT, when they smiled at u bashfully, it seemed to melt my heart away. They're so CUTE !!! Can't stand the sweetness in them! Gosh~ The best thing is to teach lower primary students and face a bunch of cute little boys and girls!

School ain't that bad after all, I guess! It's a love and hate relationship!

Well .. What can I say?